SPM WILL OUT IN 14 MARCH 2011

RIGHT NOW I FEEL EMPTY BECAUSE I THINK WHAT I CAN DO IN THIS 2 MONTHS HOLIDAY. I THINK I WANT TO PLAY PIANO AT ONE CENTRE BUT THERE TOO MUCH PEOPLE AND I NEED TO WAIT. I DON'T KNOW YET. THEN I FEEL SO NERVOUS BECAUSE 14 MARCH 2011 BECAUSE Malaysian Certificate of Education OR IN MALAY WORD IS Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM),WILL OUT. I AFRAID I WILL NOT PASS BUT I ALWAYS PRAY TO ALLAH TO MAKE ME FEEL OKAY AND CAN BE EASY FOR ME WHEN I TAKE THE RESULT IN MARCH. I CONFESS THIS IS NOT EASY FOR ME AFTER WHAT HAPPEN TO ME. I REALIZE WHO I AM BUT THERE NO REASON TO MAKE ME FEEL DUMB OR PUSH ME BE SOMEONE ELSE. WHAT I CAN DO WITHOUT MY FAMILY AND MYSELF OR MY FUTURE FRIEND. SOMETIMES I FEEL HORRIBLE AND FEEL IT'S WILL BE BIG PROBLEM TO ME. TODAY I FEEL BETTER BUT STILL THINKING ABOUT THAT. YOU KNOW, IT'S SO HARD FOR ME, SO I JUST NEED THINK WHAT BETTER FOR ME AND JUST SEE AND WAIT WHAT WILL HAPPEN IN MY LIFE THE NEXT DAY. IN THE OTHER WORD, THERE NOTHING ELSE IF SOMEONE THERE FOR ME IF THEY ARE REALLY HONEST, TRUTH AND KIND WITH ME. WHAT I HOPE IS, I JUST WANT BE MYSELF AND WHO I AM. I WANT PEOPLE KNOW THAT.